Friday, January 3, 2014


One more year has gone by and it feels like a second has passed since we were trying to get used to writing "2013" instead of "2012" in our notebooks. Each year seems to go by faster and faster. I can't say I was having any more fun than usual to justify how time has flied. Regardless, let's hope the reason 2014 has gone before we know it is because it's just that much fun. Cheers!

Friday, December 6, 2013


What makes a person interesting? More importantly, is it important to be interesting? If you're not, does that make you a lesser human being, less worthy, less deserving?

My real question is "what makes a person worthy"? Worthy of what you ask? Anything. Life, happiness. I'm constantly feeling like I'm less important than everyone and that I somehow have to earn every shred of attention and appreciation. As though that isn't a damaging belief enough, worse is that I've no idea how to become worthy. The closest I've come to an answer is by being interesting. And that is where the problem lies.

How interesting you find a person is subjective, which is good I guess. If there was a measure for it, being uninteresting would be something unavoidable for most people. It would mean that being yourself wouldn't cut it, you would have to adopt habits and a way of life that doesn't express you in order to conform to a certain standard. Could you ever do that? Could you while knowing that you won't be happy? I don't think most people could. So, good thing we live in a world when there are as many measures for interesting as there are people, right?

No, not if most people are boring. Or rather, most people think you are boring. It's usually a mutual feeling. It's bad, but it's even worse when it's not mutual. If a person you think is boring thinks you're interesting, they're a bother, if it's the other way round, it hurts.

So really, how can one be interesting in a way that will appeal to the general public while also being happy? That means not pretending to be someone else or like things you don't. Even if you find people with common interests, it doesn't mean much. There's a certain undefined chemistry that can develop between people even if they have little and common, and others who have load in common have only that and nothing more.

I know that there are people that consider me a lesser friend than others. I'm not as important to them as these other people are. And it hurts. I can't blame the lack of common interests, though it doesn't help, but rather a lack of chemistry. That chemistry is more important than common interests and it's also harder to develop. Makes sense, since it's harder to put your finger on it. What is it really? Is it an understanding? Does it stem from similar experiences?

I don't know what to do to earn a more important place in people's hearts. Doing the same for them won't work, I know that much. Liking people more won't necessarily make them like you back. Unfortunately.

I don't feel like most people find me interesting. Despite the difference in interests, I'm not too funny, I'm not confident, I'm not... good enough? I don't know what it is I lack, but I feel like I lack something. I'm not happy with the amount of attention friends and acquaintances give me, but being as unsociable and hard to talk to as I am, I can't complain. Most of all, I feel like I have no right to complain or feel sad about it or want good friends. Probably what I need is a sense of self worth... I used to think you had to do something to earn it. Now I think it's something you either have or you don't. In some rare cases, you can build it.

But that brings me back to my original question; what do I have to do to be worthy? Is it all in my head? Am I supposed to automatically feel like I have the same right as other people to pursue the friendships and relationships that I want? Would that mean that it has less to do with how interesting I am as a person and more to do with how I feel about myself and how determined I am? After all, people are drawn to the energy you exude, not your personality.

Sunday, November 3, 2013

Can't come up with a decent enough title, so this'll have to do

For someone that hates drama, I've always been very prone to it. I seem to cause it, yet I hate it. Why do I cause it if I hate it so much?

Take this blog for example. It's all so emo and dark and stupid and melodramatic and horrible. I hate that. Why do I have to write such stupid pseudo dramatic things? I absolutely hate it. Yet, there are few personal posts that aren't over the top. You could say that happens because I tend to write during times of emotional turmoil or that I focus on the negative things whenever I do write in a stable state of mind- well, as stable as I can be at least.

I wanted- no, needed, people to read it, acknowledge it, maybe even respond to it. I didn't blog for myself. I'm not sure if I am now, but I like to believe I'm better off. Still, I can't help the thoughts of view counts popping into my head. Not that I ever check them anymore, but the thought is present at times.

Thing is, this blog, it is a reflection of my inner self. And I hate that. I hate myself.

It's funny actually. If I hate myself so much, why do I put in such a significant effort to stay alive? I'd say I put in a little too much effort, to the point of reacting to fears that may or may not be irrational, like what will I have to do to survive should I not get into university. A little extreme, right?

Despite that, I can't help but loathe myself. Like my blog, I feel I'm of no worth if no one acknowledges me. With the blog it makes sense; what's the point of a blog if no one's reading it? But with me? So what if no one likes me? That's an excruciating thought, and most frighteningly, could be a self-fulfilling prophecy.

Can't you tell what I've been looking at these days? I used to be very paranoid about my physical health- still am, to the point of fainting due to anxiety during blood tests- but now I'm also a hypochondriac when it comes to my mental health, checking lists of mental disorders. I always knew I had problems, but it has recently been brought to my attention that they may be worse and harder to solve than I initially thought.

After ruling out bipolar, I found what one of my problems could be. Giving it a label has made it so much worse though. I still don't know what to do and I'm still problematic. And even worse, I don't know why I'm the way I am. Not that it would change anything...

I'm aware of my situation and I want to change. But can I? How can I? Is it possible? It's not healthy to be this way, not for me, not for anyone.

Problem is, I feel like it's out of my control. I'm ruled by fear and controlled by my emotions. During adolescence, I was very impulsive and aggressive, thankfully now I've settled. But even now I have spells of impulsivity. After a recent disappointment, I purchased a book. Okay, not all kinds of impulsivity are bad! It was a rather sensible purchase too. Three euros for a timeless classic. The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn. I don't recommend it to non-native speakers of English. At first it was hard to understand, but I got the hang of it quickly. Accents and dialects, you know.

Instead of covering up my faults I flaunt them and laugh. Maybe because I think I'll attract attention this way. What can I accomplish that it so worthy of attention for me to use it to get my fix? It's easier to use what I've already got. What I need to do is not hide my faults though. I need to eliminate them. But yeah, until I do so I'll have to hide them.

Acceptance and the eternal battle to obtain it. There's nothing wrong with that really, except the fact that when I do obtain it I stop caring. Being beautiful just for the sake of being admired but having no interest in being approached... That's not really how I feel, but idealising such situations means there's something wrong with me. I do have a history of putting in effort to be accepted and when it happens that's it. That's all I wanted and I got it. Except it's not. But my emotions seem to think so. Isn't it weird? My emotions wanting the opposite of what I want. I'm at constant battle with them. A lot of my behaviours contradict themselves. It's easy to tell; people seem to read through me right away. I'm a terrible liar.

I can explain that behaviour though. I'm am always pursuing acceptance because I've been denied it so many times. Being more sensitive than the average person, instead of getting on with it, I let it affect me. There's one thing I like to think I do right. I don't like to blame my issues on other people. Or so I think. It's easier to hate and punish myself, so I like to think I'm responsible for everything. It also gives me a sense of control. But that's no good either. I need to stop. I need to say "so what? It's fine" and it really be fine. Maybe instead of punishing I need to start apologising to myself and forgiving myself.

I hope I can get over it some day. Stop feeling so deeply, be less sensitive, be more sensible, be more stable, be in control of my emotions, be less scared, be less delusional, be a proper grown-up. Find out who I am. Actually no, become who I want to be. Not necessarily a perfect person, but one I can stand being.

Monday, July 1, 2013

The nationality of Shingeki no Kyojin characters

No one really knows, at least those of us who only watch the anime, so we can only speculate. If one thing is for sure, it is that they have what we would call a nationality since it's set in the real world. There are people that doubt this, but at this point it is definite. In episode 11 (look away if you haven't watched it) Pixis mentions wars that happened in the past over things like race and religion. Basically like us. There are a lot of references to the real world and even the existence of different races, along with explanations as to why most of the characters we see appear to be European. Apparently, people that came from the orient for some reason died out (if I remember correctly they were killed by the titans, but then again wasn't most of humanity?), and Mikasa is descended from them. So it's a given that the story is set in the real world.

It's also worth mentioning that it's set in the future. Yes, it may look old, but with the titans wiping out most of humanity, it goes without saying that the same would happen with technology. You see the damage they cause to buildings and stuff. The world as it is today would be completely destroyed within days. After that, humanity would be left with some very basic weapons. Taking into account what Pixis said about the wars and it being mentioned that humans have possessed artillery for centuries, it's obvious that we're dealing with a future real world.

That's where the nationalities come into it. They don't exist anymore because there are no countries, only human lands inside the walls. Languages would have died out too, with the most prevalent among them surviving. That won't stop us from speculating what country each character would be from had they been born 107 years earlier. We don't have much to go off other than names. We can take physical appearance into account, but that doesn't provide solid facts. The origin of a name is relatively indisputable, it's more reliable than a character's appearance at least. Here goes...

Eren Jaeger

"Eren" is a Turkish name that means "saint". "Jaeger" is clearly German and a variation for Jäger, which means "hunter". By that logic, Eren has Turkish and German roots. The German part was obvious from the beginning, everyone can tell right away just from the name. But the possibility of turkish ancestry doesn't surprise me. It's going to sound silly, but I'll say it anyway.

Way before I considered the origins of his name and thought of it as merely the japanese way of pronouncing "Helen", I thought that during the ending credits he looked Turkish. He is drawn differently than usual, of course, to the point I started referring to him as "Turkish Eren" whenever his close up came up. I found that even Mikasa gave me strong vibes for a nationality which we will discuss later. Based on their names, I turned out to be spot on about both of them! Anyway, it's just an ending sequence, doesn't say much, right? True, let's consider his appearance canonically.

To put it simply, Eren doesn't look non-Turkish. In fact, it's obvious he's not 100% Western European like other characters appear to be (*cough* Armin *cough*). The same way Mikasa looks Asian you could say, but then again a lot of us will have been affected by the japanese sounding name. He's fairly tan, and although I wouldn't call Turkish people tan the same way I wouldn't call Greek people that, it's a sort of common trait. Not as much as people would think, but then again pale-as-a-ghost me, after getting enough sun to become less white and more golden (by no means tan), I was called that in England. So, even though I wouldn't call Turkish people tan, perhaps a foreigner or a non-Mediterranean person would. So Eren's skin tone can count as evidence to support a Turkish ancestry.

I might also mention his very bright eye colour. We get a lot of Turkish shows over here now that we're too bankrupt to produce our own, and most of the actors have really light eyes. Even though they aren't uncommon for Europeans, they will be combined with fairer skin and hair. The difference with them is that they'll have dark hair and skin that isn't really light (not necessarily dark in my opinion, though it can be the case). That set of colouring, along with more Eastern rather than Western-looking features, it's possible. Of course you don't look at him and go "Turkish, no doubt about it", especially when it's likely that he's mixed with German. If we take a look at his mother, she's more like it. From the first time I saw her, I thought she must have come from the eastern side of the european scale. Hadn't necessarily thought as far as Turkey, definitely not beyond that.

Not much I can say about his father. I really can't tell. But if someone told me he's German, I'd believe them. Considering Jaeger is his last name, it's most likely the case.

Mikasa Ackerman

"Mikasa" sounds japanese and "Ackerman" sounds German. Yes, "Mikasa" it is in fact japanese, which makes sense since it's established that she has Asian ancestry. "Ackerman" is German for "fieldman", but it's also associated with Åkerman, a swedish surname. The reason I'm bringing this up is because during the ending credits I thought she looked Scandinavian (Norwegian to be more specific, but that's just what popped into my head first).

We know for sure her mother was Asian, Japanese most likely, considering Mikasa's name. Her father was not. He could have been either German or Swedish, but if hair colour is an indication, Swedish is a bigger possibility. We'll leave it at that. Pick the theory you like.

Armin Arlert

This is a toughie. For "Arlert" the best I could find is that it's a surname used in Sweden. It's meaning is unknown. As for "Armin", I had the opposite problem; too many origins.To name a few from Wikipedia, it's a Persian name, a Germanic name, even an Ancient Greek name. With the power of logic and a quick Google search, we can rule out 1 and 3 and keep that it's German, with Herman as a variant. For blond and blue-eyed Armin Scandinavian or German roots aren't surprising.

Sasha Braus

It's hard to tell from "Sasha". We're looking at Germany, Russia and many others. Her surname doesn't make things any easier since it's hard to figure out how it's actually spelled. If we take "Braus", we get German for roaring. Her appearance doesn't give many clues. She doesn't have any features that pinpoint to a certain ancestry or rule many out, so German is the most probable.

Jean Kirstein

Even though "Jean" is a french name, any spelling of "Kirstein" is german. All we get from his look is that he's Caucasian, most likely Western European. With the presence of this many german names, at this point we can start to speculate about what geographical area the walls cover. I'd say France to be honest, because we can already guess it's in Europe and because of the climate, but it could be near the south of Germany. I wouldn't place it too north (doesn't rain that much), but not that close to the Mediterranean either. But I would say more south than north of course. It looks like it's warm there.

Annie Leonhart

"Leonhart" comes up with German and Dutch, and if I had to guess I'd say it means "lion's heart". It's Annie we're talking about, it's not unlikely. Her first name is too common to be found in one or even a small bunch of countries. A lot of people go on about her being Russian, but since I've not read the manga to know if it's stated (and to be frank, I don't believe it is), I can't take it into account. I don't know whether it has anything to do with her look. Then again, sexy blonde women can be found in different parts of the world, Netherlands and Germany included. With everything we have now, they are the safest assumptions.

Connie Springer

"Connie" is a name of Latin origin, short for "Constance" and "Springer" has Middle English and Swedish origins. It shares roots with the German, Dutch and Yiddish words for "leap". His look also doesn't give many clues other than Caucasian, but from his name we can assume he is Western European, most likely German since so far all characters seem to have such an ancestry.

Reiner Braun

Not much analysis needed. He's German.

Bertolt Hoover

Same here.

Marco Bott

"Bott" is an unusual German surname and "Marco" is a name deriving from the Latin "Marcus" and used in many countries. Also most likely German.

Krista Lenz

This is an interesting case. Her first name is an eastern European form of the name "Christian" according to Wikipedia and "Lenz", which had many spelling and variants, ultimately stems from "Laurentium", literally the city of laurels. It's associated with names such as Lawrence and Laurens. It became a popular name among Christians, and here is where it gets interesting. Also according to Wikipedia, "Krista" means "follower of Christ". With a very European look and "Lenz" being a German surname, she is probably German, perhaps eastern German.


This is the best one! "Ymir" is a Nordic name and is used in Iceland. "Ymir" is also a figure in Norse mythology. Interestingly enough, that figure is male and the name seems to be used for males exclusively.

Erwin Smith

"Erwin" is a Germanic name and "Smith" is a name that originated in England. That along with his look point towards a German and English ancestry.


Some people spell it "Rivaille" and wrongly assume he is French. He isn't since "Rivaille isn't his bloody name. Now that we've heard it in the anime enough, we know it is pronounced "Ribai". Which do you think is closer?

So, "Levi" is the Hebrew word for "joining" and in the Bible he was the founder of the Tribe of Levi. Now heicho's appearance is pretty ambiguous in my opinion and I can't really determine his nationality from that. The safest assumption is that he is Jewish, specifically from the Israelite Tribe of Levi. According to Jewish tradition (and Wikipedia) people with that surname are Levites. That might not be the case though, since it's not definite whether Levi is his first or last name.

(EDIT: It's Levi not Rivaille. Who else but the author himself on his official twitter can confirm this? If you search his blog well enough, you might also find it there, along with how he came across the name in the first place. By the way, it supports my Jewish heritage theory.)

Hanji Zoe

Couldn't find anything definite on "Hanji", as for "Zoe" it's a name used in many countries. It originates from the Greek word for life, but since "Hanji" isn't Greek, we can't conclude that she is. Also, I don't believe of all people any Greeks would have survived (then again, with so many of them living in Germany, you never know). If Mikasa is the last Asian when the Chinese population is well over a billion, I really don't think there's a great chance many would have survived out of a pool of ten million. Conclusion; nationality unknown.

Wednesday, May 22, 2013

Eurovision Song Contest 2013- A fan's Top 5

I can't say I'm a fan, but I can't say the opposite either. I used to love it, however now my interest has declined, just like the quality of the songs. Last year I didn't watch it at all because of these super serious exams I was giving. They were the excuse for many emo posts, but as can you see I have already found another topic to bitch about, so worry not people.

First things first, I don't care what people say; the song that won was awesome. When I first heard it I thought it had no chance because it was too good and usually the very good ones never win. Well, there are exceptions of course (see Alexander Rybak in 2009). As you can imagine I was ecstatic from the moment it started to look like it was going to win. Yet no one seems to share my enthusiasm. The reactions I've got so far range from thinking it was indifferent to thinking it's sort of bad. Seriously people?

I learnt from humon that the lyrics refer to Europe and the relations between the countries in the past and now, which only made me love the song more. Before I thought the melody, music and voice were awesome, but now I know it is a song with quite a meaning.

Eye for an eye, why tear each other apart?
Please tell me why, why do we make it so hard?
Look at us now, we only got ourselves to blame
It’s such a shame
How many times can we win and lose?
How many times can we break the rules between us?
Only teardrops
How many times do we have to fight?
How many times till we get it right between us?
Only teardrops
Also, here's a part that refers to the present- namely the Eurovision Song Contest.

So come and face me now
Here on the stage tonight
Let’s leave the past behind us

No doubt about it. Incredible, absolutely beautiful song. No surprise it places first on this fan's chart.

Am I the only one that thinks the guy playing the flute at the start of the video is kinda cute?

Second best for me is Norway. Good going for Scandinavians this year! If only Sweden had sent Yohio and not the mundane act that failed to imprint itself into my memory that it sent , we'd have had a full house! Most importantly, visual kei in Eurovision! Will include a link of the would-be possible winner at the end of this post.


Couldn't find a better link.

Third, the surprisingly popular Romanian entry. I don't know what happens in Romania, but it seems they have quite a high number of male vocalists with great ranges. Remember Mihai Traistariu with Tornero in 2006 (also the real winner of the contest)? Eight octaves his voice could reach, apparently very rare for males. Just males? Sounds to me rare for anyone considering how high he could go.


Close your eyes at the bit where his voice goes really high and it could be mistaken for a female alto or mezzo soprano.

Fourth is Malta. Why? Because it's fucking cute song.

So sweet it's bad for your teeth.

Now where would I rank my own country? It'd probably sound biased if I ranked it here, right? Well...

At first I was surprised at what we were sending (though I've no idea what the other options were) and even more so when I found out we had got through to the finals. I'd never actually listened to it before, despite all my criticisms against it. I heard it in full when watching the contest and... don'thatemeIlikedit! It's really fun and lively, not to mention the lyrics are great. When I was listening to it I thought it's such a shame no one can understand it because it's amazingly funny. Number five, Greece.

Here are the lyrics so you can fully enjoy it:

(I got the English from here and made a few alterations to bring it closer to the original and make it a more direct translation)

We were caught in a sea storm on Egnatia street,
Gales are drifting us far from the shore,
Our route might be wrong, who's playing with the lights?
The ship is heading towards Grevena.

In a sea of whiskey
Castaways we are,  who will find us?
The earth is dizzy, it staggers away
 With a strainer for a head and a car that goes round
Who gave it sail and wheel?

Alcohol is free…

Waves are huge, the winds keep on blowing
And the mermaid keeps on asking,
Good woman, Alex is waisted.
Amidst the sea a traffic light,
Perhaps they got whiff of us,
Who put my house so far away?

Chorus (twice)

 We were caught in a sea storm on Egnatia street,
Gales are drifting us far from the shore,
Our route might be wrong, who's playing with the lights?
The ship is heading towards Grevena.

It’s not the fault of the whiskey
The ice cubes were spiked
And the ship seems to run on four round wheels!
An alcohol test and a traffic cop
 This road is not for us
A downhill within the sea begins.

Weird topic for a Greek song. Few Greeks drink enough to get to the state described in the song, which is fucking wasted. Yeah, enough to get a buzz, but enough to start seeing Alexander the Great's sister...

Which brings me to this; I'd like to explain the "And the mermaid keeps on asking/ Good woman, Alex (or Alekos) is waisted" part. There's a legend that Alexander the Great had a sister who somehow became a mermaid and up until- theoretically- today goes up to ships and asks the sailors if her brother is alive. The sailors have to reply that he lives and reigns, because if they give a different answer she will sink the ship. So that lyric is a reference to that. If you're travelling by sea and a mermaid asks you this, you know what to answer.

That's it for this years contest. Here's the (I think) official video for "Only Teardrops" and- as promised- the number four on my list had it been sent. Actually, I think it'd rank No. 2. You know what? It is my would-be second best! You don't see visual kei in Eurovision often (not sure anyone's ever done it actually) so just for that, as well as the amazing voice and good melody, it's runner-up!


Ignore the strange thumbnail and enjoy her beautiful voice. We already knew she sounds great, but this makes you realise it for good.

If you watched the point giving... eh, ceremony thing afterwards, you may have noticed a strange man (or perhaps you thought it was a girl) announcing the points Sweden gave. The one that looked like he had jumped out of an anime? Yeah, that one, He was the runner-up to Sweden's final.

It was first in votes by far, but unfortunately didn't receive such good treatment from the judges. I can understand in the actual Eurovision Song Contest having judges, but in the national final, when the people have expressed who they want to send to represent their own country and that is ignored... Judges should not be involved in the song-picking process.

I've sort of become a fan of Yohio... He has a career in Japan and his Japanese is excellent. That's a little surprising because I never thought of Swedish and Japanese as languages with similar-sounding accents! But I've only heard his singing and as you know everyone's accent improves when singing.

I'll leave it at this. I've been distracted by a shinny object. Kidding! This is the actual end of the post, I just never know how to end these fuckers. But I sort of have been distracted by a shinny object...

Sunday, April 7, 2013

How to make Sims 3 less boring (Part 2)

Remember this post? Too bad, you're reading part two of it, meaning the first post didn't work. I do seriously doubt most players didn't know about most of the things I was talking about there, but what the hell. I'll try and come up with more original, albeit more basic suggestions this time.

1) Build weird ass houses

First and foremost, how much time have you spent on testing the limits of this world? How much time have you spent experimenting? The Sims universe defies the laws of physics. The thing is though, it likes to make you believe it doesn't, so it does have some restrictions. That's why you have to learn how to work around those. Want a house in the air? Build a column, layer some tiles on top and delete the column. The floor will still be there- IN THE AIR!!! If you don't want to go that far and prefer to retain some logic in your game, just think of a really unusual structure, the house you always wanted to build but can't. Summon all your creative and architectural powers to do it. Or just look at pics of strange houses on the internet for inspiration.

2) Remodel the town

The problem with Sims 3, although it is superior to Sims 2 which I didn't catch, it comes with only one neighbourhood (unless you have an expansion pack). Sure, there's Riverview, but to be honest it's not really worthwhile. Sunset Valley is much much better. It works as to provide a change, which is refreshing, yes, however I like the sea more and the whole beach feel to it. It has mountains too, making it a perfect combination.

Never mind that, whichever town you have it could surely use some DIY. It is a difficult, time-consuming and, eventually, tedious project that will most likely never be completed (like in my case). Whatever changes you can make are welcome though. Change the location of public buildings, add more houses, create more lots, do some landscape gardening, create places like nightclubs and bars (a stereo, a bar, enough room to dance and you're done) or whatever else you can think of. Make the town unrecognisable!

3) Fill the town with attractive Sims

Let's face it, most of the pre-made Sims aren't the most... let's just say it's hard to find a suitable partner when you've spent hours creating a super gorgeous drool-worthy Sim and the best you can find is not really the best. You're hard pressed to find anything that tickles your fancy when looking around. So, all you need to do is create as many pretty Sims as possible, when editing the town move them into houses and there you go. You won't know who to bang first when you go out (can't you tell I'm not getting much action...). If you fill the town with many Sims it might also solve the problem of underpopulation that seems to be rampant in-universe. It's unrealistic to go somewhere previously empty and it suddenly fill up with people. The bigger the population, the more the chances of it feeling more realistic and less idiotic.

Also, I recently learned you can switch households while playing. I've not tried this, but it sounds interesting. There are times when I see other Sims and think it'd be nice to play with them.

4) Have ghost babies

Step one: Obtain a ghost (You'll need a grave or something. If one of your Sims dies you get it automatically, otherwise go to the cemetery and retrieve one of the ones they keep in the mausoleum.)

Step two: Get friendly with it (You only have a short amount of time, as they appear after certain hours at night and disappear when the sun comes up. Flirt a lot and try to stir them into the bedroom. Make sure your Sim is female and the ghost male. Don't know if you can impregnate a female ghost that isn't in your household, but this way you definitely can.)

Step three: Have a baby (Beware: it might not be a ghost baby. There's only a small chance it might be- or not. Don't know the chances and percentages, only that it can happen.)

5) Kill your Sims and resurrect them

Not all of them, otherwise there won't be anyone left to do the dirty work.

Sometimes, after a death, a chance might come up from the lab to bring the remains (the grave) of  a Sim to resurrect it. All this will do is add the ghost to your household as a normal Sim. Now you can have ghost babies with females too. If you make ambrosia, they will become normal again and able to age (oh yes, ghosts can't age or die. Because they're already dead).

6) Have loads of kids for the hell of it

All you need is a horny male Sim willing to jump every female in his line of vision. Go from house to house, introduce yourself, flirt and then sleep with them. Or you can pick up girls at public places. It's hilarious to get notifications of your kids being born! You can't have too many with females as there's a restriction to how many people you can have in one household. Think on though; if you do this, it might get tricky to hook up with someone in the future you aren't related to. That's the next generation you're making right there.

All I got, bye bye!

Monday, November 19, 2012

Interview with Amethyst Marie, the author of Thalia's Musings

For those of you who haven't read Thalia's Musings-yet- it's a web-based, Greek mythology- inspired series that follows the adventures of Thalia, the Muse of Comedy, and the Olympian gods. After only reading the first few paragraphs of the first chapter of the first volume I was captivated. Amethyst Marie's Thalia is most certainly not the Muse of Comedy in name alone, and a few lines into the story you'll realize what I mean. Funny, cute, full of twists, they only go so far in describing the story.
Just at the ends of last month, the final instalment of Snarled Threads- second volume in the series- was posted on After being a fan for over a year, it was time to ask all those questions any devoted reader (or at least me!) comes to wonder at some point. Amethyst kindly answered all of those questions, giving more insight into Thalia's Musings and its creation. And here are the answers:   
-What inspired you to write Thalia’s Musings?

I was stuck on the epic sword-and-sorcery fantasy series I'd started nine years earlier. It had been through a million rewrites and retcons and I just didn't really like any version of it anymore. And I was still nowhere close to writing "The End." I needed to write something I could finish, even if I was the only one who ever saw it. I asked myself what I had the most fun writing. I answered myself, "Snarky humor and complex mythologies." So I wrote a short story starring Thalia, the Muse of Comedy, focusing on her antagonizing Apollo, her newly-appointed governor. That story was the basis for "Playwright Laureate." After I wrote that, I thought, "Hey, I'll bet I could develop this into a full-length novel." I drafted an outline for a novel-length story starring these characters (which turned into a series-length outline), set a word-count goal of 80,000, and kept writing until I hit it. For the first time in my life, I had typed "The End" on something I felt comfortable showing the world and saying "This is a novel."

-How did you come to develop an interest in Greek mythology?
I'd read encyclopedias for fun ever since I was big enough to pull them off the shelf. I don't know what exactly I found so fascinating about Greek and Roman mythology, but it's been one of my favorite subjects for as long as I can remember. I like any world mythologies, really, but Greek and Roman are the ones I became most familiar with, probably because there were more resources available for them. Reading the encyclopedia entries led me to other, more detailed reference
books, and eventually to the original (well, the translated) works of Homer, Hesiod, and Ovid themselves. By the way, for anyone having trouble locating these books at libraries or bookstores, you can find some pretty good ebook versions for free at Project Gutenberg.

-Do the original myths affect the course of the plot significantly?
Yes. Obviously I take artistic license when I feel like it, but the original myths are generally the starting point. Sometimes the lack of a unified canon becomes a plot point in itself. For example, there are different myths that cite Ares, Hermes, or Hephaestus as Eros' biological father. I decided it was in character for Aphrodite to not know or care which of the three it was and for Hephaestus to raise Eros as his own regardless, so I made that my canon.

-How similar are the characters in Thalia’s Musings to their canon versions?
That's a pretty complicated question, especially since there are so many different versions of a lot of the myths that it's hard to say what the "canon version" of some of these gods are. There's almost
nothing about Thalia. We know she's the Muse of Comedy, she's the daughter of Mnemosyne (and in canon, Zeus), and she was the mother of the Corybantes with Apollo according to one myth. Other myths list Apollo and Calliope or Zeus and Calliope, hence that whole story. All of my pairings are canon except Thalia/Anyone-not-Apollo, and Artemis/Athena. I changed the Muses' parentage to Mnemosyne-only to avoid incest in my alpha pairing. I changed Persephone's parentage to Demeter-only for similar reasons, and also because in the original myths, Demeter seems to have way too much power over her daughter's life for Zeus to be a co-parent.

-What influences does Thalia’s Musings have other than Greek mythology?
Television. I do read a lot, but it seems like my writing style is more influenced by television than by books. Fantasy shows like BBC's Merlin. Dramedies like ABC's Castle and USA's Psych. Sitcoms like NBC's Scrubs and CBS's How I Met Your Mother. I once described Thalia as the lovechild of Tina Fey and Stephen Colbert.

-Have you written anything before it?
Nothing published.

-When did you start writing?
I've been writing since grade school. I remember being six years old and watching things happen around me, imagining what they would sound like if they were written in a book. " 'Amy, come inside! It's almost time for dinner!' Mom called from the back door. 'Alright,' Amethyst said. But she did not want to come inside. It was summer in Texas, and the sun wouldn't set for hours. 'Keep fighting the Tyrannosauruses,' she told her imaginary friends before she reluctantly left them to wash up for dinner."

-What inspired you to start writing?
My mom reading the Little House books to me when I was 5. As fascinated as I was by Laura Ingalls Wilder's prairie adventures, I was even more fascinated by the fact that she wrote all about them
when she grew up and that I was reading them decades later.

-Who’s your favourite author and what’s your favourite book?
Oh man. I don't know how to answer that. Maybe J.R.R. Tolkien and the Lord of the Rings trilogy? The Lord of the Rings is a truly incredible work of literature, and Tolkien's life and career are major
inspirations to me. It gets a little depressing to read about all the literary geniuses who died alone before they turned 50. Tolkien, in addition to founding the modern fantasy genre, managed to have a
family and an outstanding career as a professor and a linguist, live a long, active life despite health problems in his 20s, and by all accounts maintain a good marriage and good relationships with his four kids.

-Do you believe your style of writing has been influenced by them?
Tolkien was a lifelong student of world mythologies and ancient languages. He took that knowledge and let it inform his imagination. My own writing process is similar. But I don't know that anyone could read my writings and think, "Yes, this author is clearly a disciple of Tolkien."

-Do you read web fiction?
Not as much as I'd like to. I don't have as much time for reading now that I'm working on my own writing career. I read more web comics that web novels. Web comics like Girl Genius, Gunnerkrigg Court, and Order of the Stick are a bigger influence on my business model than serial novels, mostly because I discovered them first.

-Which do you prefer?

My favorite web serial novel is Agent to the Stars, by John Scalzi. Scalzi published Agent to the Stars on his blog in 1999. He's now a rather prolific author with genre fiction publishing house Tor Books and the president of the Science Fiction and Fantasy Writers of America.

-Any advice for web-lit authors out there?
Finish writing your first complete volume *before* you start posting it. Giving readers a full volume lets them know you're a reliable source of entertainment. Run your work by at least two beta readers
who don't care about hurting your feelings and whose tastes are generally different than each other's. Decide what your goal is for the series: is this just a fun hobby, or are you working toward being
a professional writer? Either is a great goal. Pick the one that'll make you happier. But which goal you decide on will determine your approach.

-How do you find people’s response to Thalia’s Musings?
So far, the overall response has been positive. I have yet to be told by anyone that they flat-out don't like the series. I'm enjoying that while it lasts. lol I'm pleased with the number of readers I have,
given the series' relatively short existence and my lack of any paid advertising. Volume 2 consistently got between 100 and 150 readers on each new chapter. The website passed 20,000 all-time hits the week I premiered Volume 2, and passed 30,000 the day I posted the last installment. That's really incredible for a blog that's less than a year and a half old.

-Do you have other ideas for stories you would like to write in the future?
So many. I'd like to do some steampunk and urban fantasy.

-Is there anything more you would like to reveal about Volume 3 that you haven’t yet?

Aphrodite and Adonis' daughter, Beroe, will be a major character. (Because this series just doesn't have enough characters, right? :P ) She'll be an adult by the beginning of Volume 3, as will Aglaea and Hephaestus' daughter Euphrosyne. We'll also be seeing more of Poseidon and Amphitrite.
That's it from Amethyst Marie! Be sure to check out Volume 1 and 2 of Thalia's Musings. Volume 3 will probably be here next autumn, and after that they'll be a Volume 4. So all us fans will have plenty to read for a long time yet!
Also, A Snag in the Tapestry will be released as an ebook on the 23rd of November on Amazon and If you have a Kindle or a Nook, you might want to check that out too.
A big thanks to Amethyst for the interview!